Monday, July 24, 2006

Gayle :)

Dang she got kicked out of singapore idol. I heard she quit school for a year to join the competition. Someday I want to do something brave like that too. Someday I want to stop hearing my voice in the vast sea of cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat. Someday, I want to stop talking about someday.

Monday, July 17, 2006

rain rain

Sarah Yang, a guest speaker who came to church recently shared about her project on the ark and how God was opening the floodgates of heaven, very literally. The bay area in california NEVER EVER SNOWED and it snowed. She gave a whole host of other evidence and an account of angel visitations. There was so much which matched the stuff in the story of noah's ark and she said God told her that the flood was coming to asia.

I turned on the news just now and indonesia hd some tsunami alert, china's flooding and there's some shit in korea too. And everywhere around the world, rain water levels have risen. Yeah it's scary but it's a real wake up call. Everything we have and want can just disappear in one instant if another tsunami really comes. In fact, the last one only missed us because sumatra blocked us. And if indonesia goes first it'd only be a matter of time we'd be finding nemo as well.

I hate drifting. And the part that I hate most about it is when the other person doesn't even realise it. I've already made it clear time and time again it's ridiculous to drift when everyone is an sms or a call away. So sometimes I really think you don't really care anymore. I was going to say so do I, but I know it's not true and that's what sucks the most.

Where do you want to be when the waves come crashing down? In the arms of a loved one or fighting till the very last breath? There's a non-reproducable kind of romance in spending the night with someone with the knowledge that the sun would not rise tomorrow. It's like front row tickets to armagaddon, for real. Grab your pop corn and pick a spot :)

Friday, July 14, 2006

And so runs the calander

If I was numb a week before, I'm rather paralysed by now. I'm sure every year by this time there would be people who feel this way, like the convicted awaiting the guillotine. While very consciously aware that we don't live in movies, hope is still borne on that zorro-like figure who'd swoop you away from the blade. The hope that comes with the knowledge that it is too late to do much to change the course of all this.

I want to go for Bay Beats, some music festival at the esplanade, the sort with bands and gigs. The thought of the crowd does put me off a little though.

I was watching a documentary called mixing with the best on discovery travel. I love watching people mix cocktails though you know at the end of it you're just gonna be wanting to taste it and knowing you can't at the same time. Not to mention having to watch the host gulp it down with an enjoyable 'ah!'. How annoying.

Surprisingly, paris hilton's new single is rather catchy, in a thrashy way but still it sounds good somehow.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

five and a half

that's the number of weeks I have till prelims. And honestly, I'm so afraid that I've gotten numb. I have so much uncovered and it's really going to take a miracle for me to do well. It's not that I'm not studying, I jus don't seem to be getting it right. A lot of it seems alright when I'm actually looking at it in notes or tutorials but when it comes to tests and actual questions I just screw up all the time.

I am so scared right now, I spend more time thinking about how screwed I am than actually doing something about it.

I don't want to fall short of all you made me to be.