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fishing

Not literally. but figuratively like fishing for compliments and fishing for people to ask certain questions so that one can tell others about something that he's been wanting to talk about and fishing for certain comments yeah u get the idea. It happens all around us but when should we say what they want to hear? I usually can tell when a person is fishing but a lot of times I just don't ask what they want to be asked on purpose. I feel as stupid as a,well, fish if i give in. But sometimes when people are fishing for compliments i would give excess just to watch their ego grow. I think I'm just being an asshole hahaha. Obviously I hate it when people beat around the bush.

Monday blues it is especially after chelsea won last night muahaha I slept like 5 hours last night and was half-asleep halfway through the day. Today was also a day full of adult angst about the national day rally.

ok here's what I think, I would never understand till the day i have to pay taxes. I listened to the talk though and the one thing I felt really WHATEVER about was the examples he quotes about ITE and poly people being able to attain success and making it sound like it's at the same rate as people in JC and universities. get real. more than half the people in polys and ITEs would go to jcs if they had a choice and L1R5 to do so. He makes it sound like the people in ITE and polys are as good as jc people. Seriously I cannot stand it that he does not give credit where it is due.People work their asses off to get to JC maybe they should stop focusing so much on the bulk of the people who end up(mind you I said end up not choose) to be in poly and start bothering about the people who can actually be worth bothering about. Life being cruel, hmm what's new? Why try to make it equal for everybody? To make it equal for everyone is to be unfair to everyone.

I have decided to start doing interval runs before training every wednesday in a bid to improve my stamina. I forsee a scenario. When I make a mistake or something like that during trainins, I will get the "do intervals den u end up too tired to train properly". Granted i may make mistakes due to fatigue but normally when I'm not as sharp people don't say too much. My point being? That i can see people thinking that every mistake I make is due to me being tired. And that's not true. So i'll then get very pissed off when i hear such remarks. i just want to push myself more that's all.

Plus, at this rate I don't think AC soccer will make it anywhere. Compared to how other JCs train our training is like a warm-up. It's easy to blame the coach but after doing it for sometime myself, I realised that it's easy to put the blame but after that I've still have to come up with a practical solution. So if the coach doesn't push me I'll push myself. I mean what can i expect? A division football isn't a once in a lifetime thing for the coach anyway he'll never understand.

2-0

yea we lost =( but I thought I played rather ok plus the two goals were really really stupid goals.

Wa lau first time back to church and I'm feeling so bloody exhausted after the whole day.

Not gonna blog too much just that today we had to do some planning exercise. Setting long term goals and all that nonsense. Seriously I never believed in planning for your life and setting goals. Setting a goal of 3As is not counted because studying is already a course of action chosen when you chose to go to jc. What I'm talking about is planning courses of actions. I don't think planning is good. It is giving your life a framework which is totally what this boring world is all about,being within the box. Why can't we just take things as they come? There would be so much more room for creativity then. Anyway i just don't believe in planning and mentally rehearsing your life beforehand.

I feel my cell group has become too huge. The size is no longer within comfortable range were people can really get down to interacting.

I really feel like getting the real mercurial vapour, it's going at 160 which i pretty expensive still but I really want it.

Yet Another Friday

the end of yet another school week. promos are drawing that that that much closer. scary shit o.O

Feeling a bit sneezy now probably because of the soccer in the rain yesterday. It was during PE and it rained like mad.i don't remember what came over us but we felt like playing soccer so 3 other guys from my class along with 2 girls from the combined PE class played inthe rain. Haha it was like so much fun we were laughing like mad. Which brings me to how much I miss chor-lor girls. Can't really find many in ac and it's been a long time since I've seen girls join in such crazy stuff. I dun like prissy girls, at all.I just feel they are like everything tat meets the eye. I dun really care when some prissy princess dresses up to go to town coz they're always dressing up and all but I think chor-lor girls really look great doing everything. i think it's the natural factor about it and the confidence that comes with them not being all girly and pretty for people to see. Plus they are normally so much much more fun to hang out with.Oh well I may just be generalising but I can really kinda relate this to girls like 90% of the time. Yes of course there are exceptions!

ok let's come back from the worthwhile sidetrack about my taste in the opposite gender.

Our stupid lit tutor is being replaced by some strict teacher for 2 weeks. So i had to be listening to othello (yes othello) . I think the heroes of the past are too heroic. Wait wtf that didn't make sense.As in they are a little too perfect,like how superheroes in cartoons are. I think the modern hero is one that has evolved and is one that overcomes flaws instead of being born without them. it's like how courage isn't the absence of fear but the ability to face fear. Mariah Carey sang hero and quoting the lyrics "you'll finally see the truth, that a hero lies in you" interesting change from the one in a million superhero of the past to the hero in everyone of the present.

but then again, the everyone-can-be-a-hero concept is only feasible because of the old idea of the hero being one in a million. I think someday in the future people will get bored of the idea when it has become cliche and then the superhero idea will come again. Interesting cycle isn't it, though I like the present view since it's more optimistic haha.

I really want to perform well in tmr's match. i cannot stand it that people are giving me the "you're only gonna play because the first choice winger is injured" it really pisses me off that people say things like that be it in a subtle or straightforward manner. It's not ego it's player confidence I mean how can you ever put a player down like that. It may be true but I just cannot stand receiving THE LOOK. Just hope i can put the ball in the net or something to shut them up. So I better play if not I'll really be disappoined.

Recently I've been doing something erm irritating if you'd like to call it. I never used to have people ask before stealing a fry or taking a sip of my drink but maybe in jc people are more polite and well-mannered or wadever. So whenever they ask I say no. haha but they will end up taking it anyway so i can be like "what's the point of asking when you will take it anyway" I dislike being asked rethorical questions plus anyway friends shouldn't be so ke qi.

jelly

jelly is good It's like the midpoint between ice-cream and sweets.

Training was ok I guess since I really felt I put in a lot of effort in it. There's nothing much I can do really except that right? There's a game against temasek jc on saturday, hope I get to play and hope it doesn't rain.

Nothing interesting about school today except for some guy getting confronted because of some stuff he said. I think he is such an idiot. He said stuff like he was gonna beat up who and who and whoever that attempts to make trouble with him. He self proclaimed to be the "biggest fuck" in the school and he thinks people are speaking bad about him all the time because they are jealous of him. From that summary it is obvious that this is bloody hilarious. Adding to the fact that he isn't much of a sumo wrestler or anything like that.

Why are people that insercure? they have to make an issue out of nothing just to be known or something. I kind of pity such people really. And him proclaiming to be the "biggest fuck" turns me off totally not mentioning that the two words don't seem logical at all but i kinda get what he's trying to announce. I mean respect is something which is weird, the more you ask for it the lesser of it you get. in other words, respected and popular figures don't have to go around promoting themselves. Just for the record i don't even know the guy, oh wait isn't he the big fuck around school? I rest my case.

I don't believe CF is inviting non christians to their clubbing-is-bad talk. I mean seriously it's not gonna make them stop.It would only be seen as CF's way of justifying their own actions (ie. not clubbing) to the rest of the non christian world. And here's the ironic part, why justify your actions to others when God is the only one who judges? I think the CF is retarded.

I'm returning to church and cell this weekend. I met ephriam on the train and he told me some demon-possessed girl joined our cell. She screams during worship and basically behaves a lot like some gothic mental patient.Oh and dresses goth too. eerie. I'm not all excited to see her or anything in fact I'm quite scared the thing would come onto me or something like that. I mean it's too dangerous to have something like that in a jc cell with all the young people shouldn't she be put in like more spiritually experienced people?

doh! I missed simpsons today.

Wake me up

when september starts.

I'd had it with school work I'm going to go full speed from now on. I had enough of being behind.At least I won't be having regrets if I have to drop one subject in the end. 7 weeks and counting to promos.

There's a highly infectious disease around called competition. It's symptoms include withdrawal of information regarding time spent and in bad cases even lying about time spent. Purpose? To put others paces behind oneself in order to score relatively better grades in the eventual promos.

Competition is anything but healthy from what I can observe around me. It spreads like a disease. Competition begets competition but it does not justify tit for tat methods to attempt to keep people far behind you. "I was so damn busy the whole weekend I totally did nothing at all" --few lessons later-- *takes out completed tutorial when teacher asks for it*

I've always hated people who play down their own academic progress. It's like those sickening people who always say they'd fail a test and score really well for it in the end? Yeah that's something like what I'm talking about. What am I going to do about competition? Keep up with it without attempting to pull down others just so I can do so.

Competition begets competition how awfully true that is. I am totally in race mode now.

It's really scary how people deal with unlikable characters by eventually evolving into them as well. The worst case of if-you-can't-beat-them-join-them I have ever seen.

I miss rv.

sigma notation

I think it looks like some damn cool tatoo or some secret symbol of an illegal cult or something. It's kinda the shape of a nice alphabet too. Right so obviously I've been hitting the books this weekend. Ok not really but at least I did study a bit.

Signs is showing on channel 5 now almost everyone I know is watching it. Except me of course since I've lost faith in the slow moving american brand of horror films since dunno when. Yes, I'm pro-sadako and anti-The ring. They just don't get it in hollywood do they.

I think parenthood which starts above the age of 20 should be banned for the bloody generation gap it creates. i totally hate being nagged at and hearing ridiculously retarded cliche ideas that most students use the computer to study and do projects and sarcastic remarks like my work load seemed to have decreased from primary to secondary school and then to jc. what the bloody fuck man i think teen parenthood should be encourages just for the fact parents would then understand their kids better, or at all for that matter. Go underaged fucking without condoms!

I can't believe I just typed that.

I've had some sparstic media to laugh at this weekend. The wang wang ad where the boy was talking to the sun wukong in the television is really worth checking out if you happen to be doing pw on improvement of tv commercials. On the stupidity scale of one to ten i would rate it an eleven. Another thing is the latest 5566 song. It totally sounds like some chinese new year lion dance accompaniment. i heard it over 933 last night and almost flipped out of my bed.

Choices are something we make everyday. but how many times do we end up regretting them? I don't think there is such a thing as a wrong choice. Every decision we make is a right choice. It's right because we have to learn from it even if it is the "wrong" choice and I don't believe in life being too short for regrets. get real. Regret has been, is and will always be part of our life. Yup eve invented it for us when she took the damned apple. ah what was wrong with the oranges and other fruits (see regret?). There are two types of people usually when u make a "wrong choice" and go to them for advice. The "I told you so" and the "no point regretting la". The second kind is total bullshit. I believe in a third type of response. the understanding the person's choice and giving practical what-to-do-next steps. People who try to comfort others regetting choices are really not hitting the point. wait why did I even write this? oh coz i'm sick of reading "comforting" tags on I've-been-hurt-recently blog entries. Good for you, please regret it and learn from it.

So given the turn-back-time scenario? I would make the same "wrong" choice because I get to regret and learn from it. We learn most things the hard way in this cruel world anyway don't we? Then again I still love giving the "I told you so" just to suan people haha. oh well sometimes it's good to rub it in to allow someone to remember the lesson right?

Premiership has started ogays.

exciting entry!

ah sorry for the stupid chick-blog-like-what-happened-today entry hahaha..eh the one time I write some dumb crap den kenna suan!

I totally cannot believe myself that I kinda dao-ed my friend over some petty stuff(ok maybe not petty but still) when she's going through such shit.ok so what I found out was not what you thought I found out. She seemed more normal than ever though. ok enough with the inside stuff

Have been thinking about the idea of complementation and compromise. Would you rather mix with someone who complements you or one who compromises himself for you? most of the time we go for people who complement our own character because it's just less trouble since there's not a lot of effort involved in geting yourself to like them. Yet there are people around us with whom our personalities conflict yet take the effort to compromise us. Coming to think of it, aren't these people making more effort to treasure a friendship? That's maybe why a lot of times people realise after awhile that there are actually a lot of people out of their circle of favour who care and are nice to them as well. maybe I'm just rambling but look it's true. Therefore relationships often start on high points when people feel their partners fully complement themselves but it's when they hit the rocks and realise they they cannot compromise that they end up on a break. What a I trying to imply? maybe the person u think is the perfect one will not turn out as a fantastic relationship partner. instead it's those whom are not that perfect that will last you a lifetime through a good amount of compromise =)

I walk down the street.
There is a hole.
I don't see it.
I fall in.
It isn't my fault.
It takes a very long time to get out.
I walk down the same street.
There is still a deep hole.
I pretend not to see it.
I fall in.
I pretend it's still not my fault.
It takes a long time to get out.
I walk down the same street.
There is still the same deep hole.
I see it.
I fall in anyway.
It's a habit.
I get out quicker this time.
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole.
I see it.
I walk around it.
I don't fall in.
I walk down a different street.

Again on the theme of life and all not being about perfection but about progress and compromise. I like the poem I think it's damn inspiring. We can't all live up to God's expectations and it feels good to know that we're allowed to stumble time and time again before finally getting it.ok I know it doesn't give me an excuse to stumble but it just makes me feel less bad about it.

I've been switching company quite a bit in school life be it everyday stuff and cca. I feel like I'm being so ac, not having close and steady friends but having them here there and everywhere. I think personal and private time with every single friend is very important coz it's like really when you get to know and show the person how much u care which is impossible to tell in the midst of the sickeningly hectic jc life.

Contentment is the death of improvement. hmm how true is that? yet the bible tells us to be content. funny .

back to school

know what I like about school? Yeah I don't either. school sucks day one back to school and uber stressed out and there's a physics test already on day two.

I failed chem test ah wait what's new. Though I cld have gotten more marks if jing hadn't been using my calculator during the test for so long that I had to do my sum with a rounded up value.oh well I don't really care la All i've got in my sights now is promos.

Today was a rush-back-home-right-after-school day so nothing exciting really happened. i'm so glad I have soccer and training to look forward to I'm also super grateful for my fun class that's making school a teeny bit less of a chore.

I have to stop taking super long naps omg I slept from 630 to 10 just now. What a bloody waste of time. oh and i happened to watch a bit of the channel 8 crap drama serial. Singapore drama serials are seriously cmi to the limit. there are two types of bad guys. Those who keep blaming others but repent and are forgiven in the end and those who don't repent in the end. Then there's the long lost parent-child scenario where the child always finds it super hard to accept the parent and all that nonsense. i hope the children at orphanages don't watch channel 8 it'll just totally turn them off for sure. I really find it impossible to believe that the media can one day come up with something more realistic and the day controversy is included in their production I would really give a standing ovation or something.

I'm having a mental block now don't have anything else to blog about oh crap bloddy physics.

what's the longest word on earth? smiles. it has a mile between the first and last alphabet haha.

national day! *rolls eyes*

oh yeah like whatever I didn't even bother to catch the parade.oh wait I'm making it sound as if I'm obliged to hmm let me rephrase that I didn't watch the parade. Caught a glimpse though from all the news after that. The sickening pictures showing young and old of all races smiling and pointing to the sky when the whatever it is flew past sheesh don't they get bored after what 40 years? I'm bored already after 17 years.

Kelly was pointing out how I wasn't being patriotic hmm I guess then it doesn't take much nowadays to be called a patriot. Then again ever since the end of world war 2 there was no really patriotic stuff left to do.Attending the parade wow that's love for your country ok then after the parade people leave their rubbish and crap all over the place my oh my why doesn't the news capture that part. Yes i am very very disgusted by media attention on cliche scenes of "patriotism" all that singing in 4 languages bullshit is really just bullshit. I think a good fireworks display would be better appreciated.oh wait half the patriots there attend the damn thing just for the fireworks.

ok just me rambling.

I skipped training today coz my foot's not well yet. gonna go study with linxin so long since I last saw her.

eat and sleep

that about sums up my day kinda fucking boring day with the most exciting thing being the simpsons.

Oh well I rather this than be in school celebrating national day sheesh like there's anything to be happy about. I watched discovery channel just now and saw this programme about space colonies and how we are all gonna live in space in the future. The colonies are like big bubbles which are supposed to be self sufficient for some long period of time. I didn't know that such an experiment had actually gone on in a certain desert on earth where people lived in this enclosed space. it's kinda interesting too when they say they'd bring animals and insects into space too so it's like shipping mother nature too. Too bad we'll all be long dead before we will get to experience such cool stuff. I bet by that time they'll be like talking about earth like some loser slums area like "oh my god i watched a show about people who lived on earth last time I totally laughed my ass off i mean they never got to see stars up close" hahaha oh well

Everybody makes mistakes. That's why there are erasers on pencils.

awwww

I dun really appreciate the deja-vu of this entry.Right so i just got back from festival of praise and am blogging late at night and not going to school tmr haha.

Went with zacharoy and kyna! ahahaha it was like damn bloody good and we had super good seats today. Seriously hillsongs rocks la Delirious also the guy's voice is damn good.we were jumping like mad in that cramped up area i think i dislocated my knee slightly o.O

The rest of my day was spent sleeping haha woke up at like 2pm in the afternoon.

right so chelsea won the charity shield! ahahah so sad that I missed the match but hillsongs was worth it.

U know how there are times when u don't ever think you could find someone like a certain somebody? And then someone crosses your path and behaves totally like the certain somebody? It's really cool.

I think telling people to think out of the box is becoming a cliche. hmm the little ironies of life.

one way jesus

you're the only one that I could live for

amen to that.how true it is that when all else fails the lord is always there for me. Went to festival of praise with kyna and cyrena today it was really great and definitely worth the 3 hour queue. hillsong really rocked.stupid cyrena waited until last minute den appear and i was queueing with kyna in the super hot sun just to chop seats for her.oh well nvm I forgive her muahhaa.

I feel like going for the final night tmr but it'll surely end at like midnight and there's school on monday.which reminds me I so want to skip school on monday but ksk demands that we get an mc and parents' letters will not be accepted.what the fuck is wrong with her all the other classes accept letters I seriously hate her.

I got my foot injured during training today. Dunno why so suey can injure the same spot twice. Gomez and randy both stepped on my right foot until i think the tendons inside are bruised or torn. I totally couldn't shoot with my right foot and had to use my left foot for shooting practice what a bloody waste.

Just now while waiting at the busstop with kyna on the way home, we saw this whole gang of techno trishaws screaming down the road. So funny la stupid lao pok vehicles blasting techno music den each one a different song den all in a group. We laughed until peng man.

pw is so boring

omg i finally got involved in my pw group discussion during pw period and I realised that they are kinda still at square one.
meaghan: omg really?? i thought they would be damm ahead without you!!! ahahahaha k sorrie.
kelly:haha duh bryan is like how useless and retarded lahh. their grp should just kick him out and they may just pass borderline. humph. i hate you/ sound familiar??? hahahas

ok so anyway I just organised their work for them like kinda telling them how we should do things and I am slacking already.At least I did a significant thing.

ok meaghan is the ugly girl in my class and kelly is the uglier girl in my class they want to guest blog.

*drumroll* ahem sorry WE are not ugly. at least we're more blessed than bryan in the looks department =)))) ( it's n ij thing and rv is not included ) so aniwae we're having pw now with ksk at the end of the row nagging at yi peng about dropping lit. poor guy.

I seriously think ksk is super long winded. She goes on and onnnnnnn about the same point and sometimes she doesn't even hit the point. that was bryan. we took a break cos ksk was talking to us bout our pw. sooo annoying.

bryan is our classmate. we hate him. whoever reads tis shld boycott his blog forever ( unless we are forever guest bloggers ) he's mean, rude, vulgar. in other words, not worthy to be our fren.
crap we haf phy lect now.. we would have continued but we cant =( but aniwae, we still accept bryan's unconditional love for the 2 nicest classmates in the world =)

ironic

yep title says it all. I witnessed the funniest scene this morning. After assembly all the teachers were called to a certain room for a meeting.i was standing outside the meeting room and saw how teachers totally behaved like students. I could hear the "can everyone please settle down and keep quiet" from inside the hub and that is so like us going into a lecture theatre.

Then we saw a group of teachers not in the meeting room.We looked at them in a aren't-you-supposed-to-be-in-there way and they were like are we supposed to be there? oh nevermind let's go before they see us. i mean LOL. And guess where the teachers went to. The canteen to eat and talk. Just like us when we skip a lecture! it's like totally swap of roles man.And these are the same people from whom we are supposed to learn from.

ok besides that the rest of the day was pretty much boring lessons and walking around half-awake looking forward only to that 40 min recess when we could whine about the day.wait isn't there a bit of a deja-vu here? The only interesting lesson was lit. Miss netty is leaving us next year gosh that totally sucks she's like the best lit teacher ever and so nice to bully too. She bought us orgasmic royce chocolate but there was so little in the box everyone was breaking the already tiny piece into even microscopic bits. The chocolate was good though and we spent the whole lesson eating and talking crap.

I need to seriously catch up on work during the national day break.

oh my gawddd

it's august already! Promos are so dman bloody near I am actually freaking bloody scared to hell.Just had a wake up call from one of my friend.I used to keep pace with her in studies but she's doing like damn well in her jc now and I'm doing like shit omg. Time to WAKE UP

my e4 lit assignment is pissing me off argh..e1 nd e8 done so near yet so far.This is the period that lit kills me every term the time when the 3 assignments come. I'll be so done with them this week and yay lit will be back to the normal slack and no homework mode.

I seriously cannot wait for training to come tmr. It is like the only meaningful part of school life la.Without soccer I would really be totally bored of this stupid life.Plus there are so many arrogant bastards out there whom i really wanna prove wrong.

AC is such a face place *words rhyme in emphasis*(haha ok too much lit)I hear comments like this person is loser that person is so no life I mean what's wrong man you don't fault a person for that at least not in front of her or her friends.Maybe talking like that about people you don't really know is more harmless but about your friedns? that totally sucks. People want to befriend people just because they are more popular and less "loser".who defines loser anyway I'd bet there are people out there who can define it in another way and make these people sound like losers as well. It's just about how you look at it wad. I hate image conscious people who pretend to be what they are not and never will be. Sometimes I take a look around me and there are only that many sincere people around.I hate people with this sort of dispicable character even when they are nice to me. i mean I really totally despise them.