tagged

ok so I got tagged to do this by xian wei

5 random things about myself

1) Half my world is in english the other half is in chinese so I have to change channels a lot of the time. I have thoughts in both languages ahaha

2) I usually have dreams in the morning like at 7am and not at night.

3) I hate most leafy veggie except lettuce. So I eat brocolli and carrots a lot

4) I like to think aout random things a lot of the time at home. I can lie on my bed and just think a lot and not fall asleep. Basically, thinking about stuff is like an activity to me.

5) I hate being anywhere alone. Be it the few metres to the toilet or few minutes in the canteen i hate being alone.

ok so the 5 people I have decided to tag are

1) Cyrena
2) Elsa
3) Andeous
4) monique
6) liane

You have to do this when you are tagged.

So today I actually invented a cool christian quote on my own. not like I was actively thinking and phrasing one, but it sort of came to me and sounds good anyway.

Repentance is the greatest courage of man, forgiveness is the highest love of God
-Me

Devil's Advocate

Just when i thought I was being all involved in church and holier than before, some stranger had to play devil's advocate, ironically, right at the church doorsteps where I was promoting M@D camp.

Speaking of which, I made the announcement on saturday and accidentally said the word "damn" but I'm sure they'll forgive me haha since i said the camp was damn cool. lol. I've been quite busy this weekend with the camp publicity it really sucked missing sunday soccer twice in a row.oh well I'll try to meet up with the guys when I'm free. The preparation isn't exactly fun since we're actually working plus the response wasn't exactly superb.

Wow I last blogged on monday, that's a record. oh so I met elsa on tuesday at ntu for lunch. She was having some job attachment thingy which was everything but a job since she does nearly nothing all day hahahah. More importantly, ntu so isn't the place for me. I mean yucks, it's such a singaporean place. The people there are like those you see on channel 8! There's like no life at all in the school. Hmm maybe I wasn't in the more happening faculties.

Played badminton and watched champions league which was incredibly boring with manu-villareal at the top of the bland list.

Oh and I scored my first ever goal for AC against JJ so i was quite happy it was a significant goal since we drew 1-1 but we so deserved to win the jj players are so unfit and disorganised. The refree was this fat slob who never failed to amaze me.

So back to devil's advocate. I don't even know why i agreed to go maybe the irony of the whole situation stirred my interest. Yup someone from church asked me to go to a club party.

Assurance

I think it's a great thing to give. It kind of occured to me when I told people things like "hey you did the right thing" and saw how much better it made them feel.

Recently some guy took a pair of soccer boots from the soccer cage and lost A BOOT after he finished playing. It costs about 100 dollars and he only wanted to pay the owner 50 because he only lost one sde of the boot. Obviously that is ridiculous and unacceptable to many because there's no way to buy ONE boot, but the owner decided to settle for it. Many were quite angry about it and felt that we had to stand up for a teammate who had just been taken advantage of. I felt that way too at first. After a while I decided that I shouldn't encourage him to demand the full $100 compensation if he was willing to setle for $50. I mean it's always a good thing to show mercy right? And I don't think he'll regret it. So i'll feel proud of him that he had it in him to show mercy and not demand full compensation at his own expense(literally).

M@D camp is taking more of my time than I expected. I'm missing the sunday time that I hav with virus because of it. Oh well I'll see it through and take it as an experience. Haven't really broken the ice in the committee at least not for me since I don't know so many people there and so many people there know so many other people there. ok take a moment to absorb that. I kind of only got carmen and pauline to talk to at the moment =S oh well it's only the second meeting. I'm doing a publicity announcement this saturday, kind of excited.

I am so jeaslous of the j2s who have finished their A lvls

Don't tell me

What is politically correct. I'm not a hypocrite, I won't claim to be who I'm not, I won't claim to like what I do not enjoy the least bit. For most of the time my attitude has been better than some people. I say I don't give a flying fuck, I mean it. It's better than the people who claim they give a shit but show otherwise.

i haven't been able to talk about the exorcism of emily rose. I watched it, it's a good movie. The story comes around to show the evangelistic purpose of the movie. I think the girl's damn suey, all the really hardcore demons possessed her. Lucifer himself the boss was in her too. According to the movie which was based on a true account, mother mary is a holy figure, almost like a goddess like catholics believe. Interesting.

So I've gotten a new phone, not really exciting since I hav to get used to the keys all over again. Which is rather sickening. And I lost some numbers which is irritating me like hell.

Carmen got me into this commitee planning a church camp for pre-believers whom our church has reached out to recently in some tutoring programme. Had the first meeting yesterday, was kinda cold with everybody quite shy and all. I don't know anybody there except like carmen and pauline and this is really a step out of my comfort zone. It's a big step getting involved in church that's other than service and cell group, hope it goes well for me.

I suddenly feel like dropping physics. More breathing space

Tribute to Disney

I love Walt Disney. I simply cannot imagine life without all the disney productions. Yes I'm a Disney fan, screw pixar. I've finally gotten back my disney CD from joycelin. bought it during the great singapore sale for like a dollar ninety-nine it has all he greatest disney hits mostly the songs and tunes in the disney movies and cartoons.

Tarzan? "You'll be in my heart" What about Lion King? Can you feel the love tonight? And Pocahontas? Aladdin?Hercules?Bambi? oh my goodness the list goes on. Mulan was great so was the little mermaid. 101 Dalmations? The Hunchback of Notre Dame? The one that realy made me cry was Dumbo. When I see an elephant fly, haha. Can hollywood come up with more innocent romance than Beauty and the Beast? I don't know if you're feeling what I'm feeling right now but for me, each tale and each cartoon has a part of me with it. Who I watched them with, how I felt when I watched them back then. I'm grateful to have the opportunity to grow up in a disney generation.

I don't like the super hero genre of current cartoons. I really do pity kids of today. Yes I've been through this once before but with the CD playing I really had to blog about it again.

I love the world of disney for the amount of hopes and dreams it presents. Knowing there's a place where dreams nearly always come ture is really a beautiful thing. I would like to live in a disney world. Yeah who am I kidding? Reality check? yes I know all that. I'm just saying the simplicity and everything being in it's right place and order is a very attractive quality of disneyland. It's always nice to get absorbed in such a fantasy I think the world should too from time to time it might just make this earth a better place.

Monday blues surprisingly even during the holidays. Just like on schooldays, I'm spending my weekdays looking forward to the weekends. Church and those virus peeps.

I like the chicken little song. Mar-lee-yaa-heee Mar-lee-yaa-ooohh mar-lee-ya-arrhh ma-li-yaa-hahaha

Why is my reflection someone i don't know? Must I pretend that I am someone else for all time? When will my reflection show who I am inside?
Why must we all conceal what we think, how we feel? Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide? When will my reflection show who I am inside.
Taken from the Mulan theme song, Reflecttion. I think it's so meaningful, to think it came from some kiddy disney movie huh? ^^

Surreal

Oh my gawd, I just have to blog about this. I just woke up from the best dream ever. Normally dreams are limited to like scenes but this one actually had a plot, like a movie running through my head. The plot was great too. It's so not a wet dream though there were bed scenes but just like in the movies, these scenes were rather censored. The best part about it is that I didn't wake up when the dream had reached a climax(no sexual connotation intended) but I continued dreaming haha. The coolest part was evacuation of the country. It had to be done in a fantasy-island-slide way where we grab a mat and lie on our bellies and slid like 20km to the place we're supposed to go to. A very long version of fantasy-island slides haha. I shan't divulge the plot maybe I'll become a director or something next time muahahah.

So I've been playing a lot of soccer lately. The team's got a new coach who is, I wouldn't say better yet, but completely different from the previous one. He's 47 and can still play better than any one of us in the team. Ex-national player, so whatever the previous coach could only tell us, he can show us. His comments are much more clever and to the point and he seems like a nice guy. He says he doesn't believe in 100 miles per hour football but instead we should control the game slowly. I'm not sure about that though. A division is spoiler footbll. You have to be fitter and stronger. It's proven since the champion teams always have out of this world fitness levels. Plus I don't think half a year is enough for schoolboys to know how to control a game so well that we don't have to chiong all the time.

Haven't really met up with some people this holidays and surprisingly I'm refering to people in my school. haha. Oh well, at least they're in my school.

Looking at all the ns guys in church and around me, I'm kind of scared really. It's not NS that I'm afraid of but it's that they all seem to have become adults once they get out of JC. I don't want to get out of JC. I want to remain in my 17-18 year old prime forever. I'm not ready for the next phase of life but it's not in my control to stop it from happening. I'm afraid that I might lose a part of me permanently. It's quite hard to put into words so if you don't understand, TOO BAD.

Right, england won. Damn

Ok time for sunday soccer.

fa ru xue

wah I love that song, it's by jay chou by the way. And I've been downloading old hits by M2M recently. marion Raven sounded so different and so girly back then, totally different from her recent album. And I wonder what happened to the brunette.

Right, so I've got my OP first thing in the morning tmr. My group's the first so I guess there's not much time for mental preparations. Of course I'm hoping I'll do a good job and set the standard high for the groups to follow. I didn't even really rehearse my speech, I did a tiny bit of preparation though. I've always been better at giving things impromptu and I'm counting on that to work out for me tmr as well.

Haven't really been able to get down to studying, training and outings have been taking up so much of my time. Not just the activities themselves but the time required to catch up on sleep because of htem. It's been a boring week with no champions' league football.

A new coach is coming to look at the team on friday, do I want him? I'm for him. I realised that the people who have been getting regular first team places aren't really for him. Can't blame me for thinking that they want the old coach because he favours them. Contrastingly, those who haven't been really in favour are totally for the new coach, unsaid by most, but mainly because it's a second chance to make that valuable first impression. Though I don't know here they are gonna get the money to pay off the old coach's contract, but it'll be great to have a more passionate coach for a change.

If people don't receive you well, i think you should try to befriend and hang out with them but only until a point where beyond that you appear desperate to them. I think I've reached that point with some people and well I've put in my fair share of effort I have no problems answering to myself.

I'm looking forward to church this weekend, no particular reason though.

fucking fletcher

I hate him. I can't stand how lucky that goal was. Though it was the best thing he could do, head back across the goal but it was so sickening. The whole man u performance was sickening. They parked the bus in front of goal right after the goal which is g-a-y. That's why they'll never be champions because champions will never park the bus at 45 mins. The second half was really revolting from man u and I don't count those silly breaks from rooney and ronaldo as chances they made. They only happened because chelsea had to send so many people up to try to break a what 9-man defence in the final third of the field. Man U don't have the self belief to play normal and try for maybe another a goal and it's really pissing to see them runaway with 3 undeserved points and everybody talking about how good their performance was and applauding them for it. I'm looking forward to man u at stamford bridge.

ok I feel so much better now that's off my chest haha.

Ever had a friend that's kind of not in your clique and you don't really get opportunities to go out and whatever, basically just not being able to spend time with? Yet you guys are reasonably good friends? I've had so many of this type of friends. I don't really know what to do except to let them know that I'll be there for them whenever they need me. It's really a pity sometimes, you know some friendships would be great if taken a step further, but you can't because of certain situations and groups you are in. Then you start thinking what if so and so was in another class, or from another school, or had gotten a different L1R5, would things have been different? It's one of those little sad things in life which you watch slip by your grasp and know there's nothing really you can do about it.

Was randomly switching channels yesterday and I came across this show where the character says, in mandrian but I'll translate, that human tears represent resilience. I think it's interesting I mean how many of us have actually thought of it in that way? Tears are always a symbol of helplessness and surrender. Then thinking further i thought it wasn't wrong to think of tears as a representation of resilience. Think of the times you had a wound so painful you cried tolerating it and all the times you cried over something and came out stronger. So screw nan2 ren2 liu2 xue3 bu4 liu2 lei4.

I think sunday's sermon was the best I ever heard in COOS. Seriously, I'm alwys the one complaining that a message is lousy but this time it was really great. It had all the ingredients of a good presentation and the intricate points were brought across very clearly. Nobody's born with compassion for things around us, in fact I've recently started to believe that we are born apathatic. But we're supposed to ask God to open our hearts to what others are feeling. It's always nice to hear a nobody-is-born-with-this/ nobody-is-perfect word being preeched in our world of sky high expectations.

Something else the speaker shared which I thought was really good though not original.
'I feel sorry for the man who can't feel the whip when it is laid on the other man's back' -Abraham Lincon

leave your old self behind

Inspiring nike advert. I think it's very symbolic and meaningful. To become better you have to first look your old self in the face and then walk away from it. The only part about that commercial I didn't like was henry haha would have liked it more if it was lampard or something like that.

wow so long since I last updated. So there was meaghan's birthday lunch at some gala high class formal restaurant in Hiyatt hotel. I was like re-living first 3 months rv to ac cultural shock haha I didn't know hiyatt was spell that way I always thought it was hired I mean people always pronounced it that way. nvm there was even more to come. I said the food was "solid" which apparently was cheena slang according to them and I ate scallop with raisins which was weird according to them as well. And when i called the thick noodle-pasta-whatever, italian mee pok, it kinda was the punchline. ok so I made a fool of myslef lol.

Had training yesterday I thought the physical part was stupid we had to run as a team and the pace was the pace of the slowest person I mean how stupid is that most people don't even get to push themselves I seriously don't get the "as a team" theory when doing physical training. If I can only lift say 40kg when we do gym training does that mean the strongest fella in the team should lift only 40 as well? Own time own target should be the way I'm kind of disappointed the teacher-in-charge, whom i've grown to respect more and more recently, should adopt such a ridiculous system. Then again maybe that's my opinion only some people in the team do find the training ok.

Due to the frustration, I've decided to run intervals on my own in the park at my place so I was on my second round when this NS guy started running also and we were like racing each other lol kinda awkward since I didn't even know him but what the hell it did make me run faster.

I never get sick of armageddon I don't know why but it's like addictive lol I can watch it over and over again. Best 20th century movie in my opinion.